My Dream Guy Mix

If creating my "the one" is my prerogative, then I'll take the liberty to get the best selection of men out there and put them together in one piece.

I'll call him, Gabiel Zachary. First and foremost, he should be a straight guy.

He'll have Ian Somerhalder's dreamy, tantalizing, eyes.

Phillip Phillips' butt.

  
Pablo's hands.

<I cannot post a pic of him sorry =p Just imagine thin big hands with candle like fingers.>

Paul Wesley and Chico Garcia's wit and sense of humor.

The body of Adam Levine. <DROOOOL>

Chris Martin's lips (and voice too).

John Legend's oozing voice. (I'm torn with Chris' and John's voice. A mixture of two will do.)

Gino Quillamor's height.

Chris Crary's cooking talent.

Patrick J. Adam's eye for a good photo.

The emotional side of Danny O' Donoghue

And of course the personality of Chris Tiu. My ultimate crush. The guy who's one ligo away from being perfect.

That's my idea of a perfect guy. Well, who am I kidding? I know looking for a guy with all of these qualities is just a fantasy but at the end of the day, all I really want is someone who will accept and love me for who I really am. Someone who can look me in the eye and tell me that I'm beautiful even though I am imperfect.

So, if you are out there (or if I'll see you in another lifetime), I am waiting for you. Patiently, by the way.

That crazy little thing...

Most of my friends my age are in a relationship. Some of them even have a family of their own already. Unfortunately? I'm not one of the lucky?? ones.

I'm turning 24 but I haven't been in a serious relationship since birth. Is it a bad thing? Well, maybe. I used to think that there may be something wrong with me that's why nobody likes me. Maybe it's because I ain't gorgeous or maybe because I'm fat or maybe I'm not likeable at all. But those times have gone by. I don't know how or when exactly I finally was able to overcome my insecurities. I woke up one day feeling good about myself and that was it.

Sometimes I feel really thankful that I don't have to deal with relationship sh*t and stress but there are also other times when I wish I have someone I can share my life with. I wish I have someone to come to the movies, to go out and try out new diners and restaurants, someone who I can call mine. I don't really know if he's out there somewhere, but hey, if you are and you happen to pass by this blog entry, I want you to know that I know you'll come into my life at the perfect time. It's hard, so hard, to just sit around and make myself that there's someone out there for me. What if there's none? I hate the waiting game.

People may not believe it but I'm being honest when I tell them it's okay with me to end up alone. I have made peace with it. Basta, makapag tour ako around the world and go into law school, I'll be fine. Whatever my fate is, I promised myself that I'll make the most out of my life. I'll live happy. I won't worry myself too much anymore. Because I'll only live once, you'll only live once, we all will only live once.

P.S. I'm still not over you..

Don't you know that I've tried to get you out of my mind but it don't get no better as each day goes by..

Why I want Jessica Sanchez to win Americal Idol 11

Some people may say that I want her to win just because she's half Filipina sorry but no. I want her to win because no one else in that competition deserves the title more than her.

She's versatile. She's always on pitch. Her runs and notes are always spot on. She has soul. Her phrasing is perfect. She's a total performer. She may lack physical star quality but she's young and who knows? She might just grow up as a drop dead gorgeous girl. 

So yeah, I hope and pray really hard that she'll win the competition. Well, if not her, it should be Phillip. Joshua is a great singer but duh, he's too overrated.

Mom

For all the times that you try to make everything okay,

For all the times that you try to make all may pains go away,

For all the times that you told me "Don't worry"...

For all the clothes and shoes you bought for me,

For all the foods you cooked,

For all the medicines you provided to cure me when I'm down with sickness...

For all your support,

For all your encouragement...

For believing in me,

For never losing faith in me...

For embracing me in times of triumph,

For embracing me harder in times of defeat...

For not leaving when the world turned its back on me...

For giving me a home...

For your unconditional and unfailing love...

For being my friend,

For being my mother,

Ma, thank you.

I honestly wouldn't know how to live this life without you.

I love you each and every day of my life.

Happy Mother's Day!

Unfixable

Sometimes you just have to give up, leave it broken, move on, and find a new one.

Sunset

I remember reading somewhere that letting go is something that you do everyday. Well, that sure is true. It feels like whenever the sun rises, those feelings that you try to throw away rises with it. A moment of silence and you'll realize that they're still there. Right where you left them. Haunting you. Getting through to you.

But you know what's better? Each day you try to fight it, you get stronger. The shield gets thicker. The pain slowly goes away.

I look forward to that sunrise when I no longer remember a thing about you, about us.

Hi, thanks again, for finally letting me let you go.